Admittedly, allowing three months to pass between blog updates is not a promising approach to building repeat traffic.  I’m sorry to have let you down- yes, all four of you.  In the months since my last entry, I have been busy working to improve my life-my physical and psychological health both.  Though I seem to succeed at putting on faces, I have not been particularly well- no energy; chronic aches, pains and sadness all feeding off of one another.  Perhaps with a few thousand dollars, I could have been diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or something.

And then what?  Like millions of Americans, I have no insurance.  On top of that, I have a pre-exisiting condition that most insurance policies won’t cover, meaning  insurance could potentially be useful in covering the  expense of  some unforeseen disaster (if they didn’t cop out using one of their many loopholes), but would pay not a dime towards my pursuit of addressing the problems I already have.  Gee… that’s not such a good deal!    I also missed the boat on Wisconsin’s Badger Care, which I had trouble signing up for when I tried via the web and was too stubborn to wait an hour and a half to do by phone.  Absolutely my fault in the end, but as it wouldn’t have covered much of what I need it most for, I’m not particularly devastated.

Between a cyst in my bladder wall which survived two surgical attempts at its draining, a chronically inflamed and varyingly painful to excruciating epididymis which has plagued me, my back and, most importantly, my nuts for twelve years now, along with a rough, disheartening stretch of many years in my non-existant love life, I have not been well.  I did my best to cope with these ailments, but they slowly, yet ceaselessly and systematically destroyed my overall health and vitality over the last decade.  With no insurance, urologists mystified about the origin of my condition and stumped on how to address it and blood tests that cause no alarm (at least, not if read only on the basis of whether or not you’re in “normal range”, which leaves room for all kinds of problems and merely rules out the worst of possibilities), I knew that I needed to seek out alternative, self-empowered methods and treatments that could dramatically improve the health of my organism and its systems.  In the last two months, I have changed my walking gait, become an avid barefoot runner, altered my posture, improved my diet immensely by eating more greens, nuts, legumes and fruit, along with lots of chia seed and fermented cod liver oil (mostly for a good source of vitamin D, aimed at my sadness, stress and dermatitis)… and started a quantum medicine treatment with NutriEnergetics, which aims to fix the control systems which regulate (or, if sick, clearly fail to regulate) healthy biochemical processes in our bodies.  This treatment is responsible for the newfound sense of vitality that has given me the hope I can actually get better.  And as a I get better both emotionally and physically, my musical focus and stamina improve as well…

Speaking of which, there have been recent developments that may land me in a proper studio, which is very exciting.  In the meantime, I owe y’all some videos of the songs I’m working on.  It’s the least I can do, considering there are only two songs on this site right now.  I’m sorry.